I feel like i might be overstepping my boundaries, and might loose this person as a friend for posting part of a "friends only" entry, but i can't sit idly and do nothing. This entry from a friend broke my heart and i need y'all's help. This entry is screened from her so she can't see any of your comments.
My mom is about to start chemotherapy in the next few days, she's depressed and scared, I am having a hard time dealing with the fact that in a few days, My mom will not have hair, will be losing weight, getting sick as a dog and been even more depressed and I don't know if I have the strength to not cry when I see her that way. I know I have to be strong for her, but who the hell is being strong for me? *sigh*
Me and (name ommitted for privacy) are fucking living off the little bit of food we have every week, until it's gone, then buying more of the cheap things that can make alot of sandwiches and cheap quick meals. I haven't had any meat in over two weeks, let's up it that way, unless you include tuna. We have 2.45 in our bank account and have since last Friday and will again until this Friday. We run out of stuff, we just don't have it period for awhile. I am so sick of being broke enough where we can't even buy one extra fucking thing that's even only a dollar because that may have to buy us a loave of breaad to have to eat on all week long. I'm living in a nice expensive townhouse and eating like a poor person literally :(
We will not have a Thanksgiving since we have no extra money for a turkey or a ham, and my mom will most likely been really sick still, so she won't be able to be home more than likely to have a dinner with us, so what's the point? I doubt we will even have a Christmas for that matter, but that's a little ahead to say I guess. No gifts though, that's a certain thing and not certain my mom will be well by then either
Me and (name ommited for privacy) have been having arguements bad enough where I told him I'm dealing with enough, if he can't stop wanting to put more stress on me and just be here for me like a husband should, he can leave. I have enough I'm dealing with that I don't need his shit right now too. He has been being a pure asshole and I am just fed up.
So far this week, we've had our microwave that broke, I almost choked on a piece of plastic, our neighbors are being bastards beyond belief, we barely made it where we had enough for rent by $1, my mom is going through hell and back with this cancer, Michael decided to leave my mom yesterday because he can't deal with it all...literally went to the hospital and handed her his ring back like a fucking chicken shit, and I am just about to fucking lose my fucking mind.
I can't take anymore.
I; myself am putting together a food care package for Amy, but she is still in alot of need for help. She doesn't have gas money to go and see her mom in the hospital, she is (as you can tell) emotionally distraught and could use a pick-me-up. My idea was to generate some donations to be able to send her a gas card and also maybe a gift certificate for dinner and a movie for her and (name ommited here) to add some much needed spark back to their marriage. If y'all could just donate like a dollar (or whatever you can) to this "special fund" i would greatly appreciate it, and i'm sure Amy would. I knwo i posted on her behalf a few entries ago, but i only got one response. I'm hoping that y'all can find it in your hearts to help Amy out. You can email me for my address to send donations if you don't already know it. Also, i will have Amy send out thank you cards, so y'all can rest assured that this is not a "scam" ... not that those of you who know me would think i would do something like that.
Please, Please, Please post this to your journals to futher the word. Please. And one more for good measure... PLEASE.